Mixed Feelings

I have really started to get into my book "How to win friends and influence people." It’s really interesting how a little bit of self reflection can change you. I have been trying to not criticize condemn or complain. So far that’s the best advice I’ve ever received, crazy that it came from a book. I have been wanting to read this book for a while but have been putting it off. I am glad I am finally getting the chance to read it. I read about 15 minutes every night and some nights I don't want to put it down. A few classes ago the topic of burning out really sparked my interest. I find it so easy to burn out and I have found with most of my facilitations lately I have to take a few minutes after to follow up with myself. I do workshops every week called MCDP which are self discovery classes for students where I discuss how they are feeling about the major they have chosen, what they have chosen, what career choices they are planning to make, what is valuable to them, if their parents agree with their choices...etc. I find that I often want to share my values and opinions but I have to remember this is about them and as a facilitator I am a neutral party that moves the discussion along to allow them to reflect on themselves. I find that this activity has been great experience to be a facilitator. I am excited to continue practicing. I didn’t realize I would have so much practice with my current position at Career and Academic Planning but I think that it will help when we do the activity for our clients. I am teaching a class called IS 202, I was excited to hear that the professors that I teach with thought I was doing an excellent job and were interested in me facilitating the last two classes. This will be a great opportunity and I'm excited to learn more about what I will be doing. I have mixed feelings about last class. I felt a little uncomfortable and after thinking for a bit. I think that I really built up my nerves since we were getting individual feedback right after each person. I think that it just siked me out on top of the distractions of people throwing up their hands. I felt I really bombed something that should of been easy for me. I am realizing that it is actually harder for me to get up in front of people I know and mess up rather than strangers. I feel this is a bit weird since most people can get up in front of strangers and feel so nervous and anxious, yet I am the complete opposite. I have been noticing this more and more as I do facilitations with people I know and get more and more nervous within class. I have known 10 of the 14 classmates for over a year and yet I still get nervous when I do presentations. I think I possibly care more about what they think.
On a more positive note, Courtney's icebreaker was great and I can't wait to use it. I think she really thought it through and came up with an excellent foreshadowing idea for the class. Kudos to Courtney!